sbdcsierra Chapter 174 Who will be the audience?
Chapter 174 Who will be the audience?
The car drove steadily towards the apartment outside Xie Xubai's school.
The designated driver dropped the person off at the destination, collected the money and left on his own. Xie Xubai grabbed Shen Jun and dragged him forcefully all the way back to the apartment.
Before Shen Jun could even turn on the light, Xie Xubai pressed him against the door. The kiss came like a violent storm. Xie Xubai pinched Shen Jun's chin with one hand, forcing him to raise his head and accept Xie Xubai's fierce bite.
"Thank you... please let me go... it hurts... mmm..."
Shen Jun was kissed by Xie Xubai, and the spicy taste of the strong liquor in the other's mouth was filled with his heart.
It can be seen that Xie Xubai had indeed drunk a lot. Just now in the car, the two of them were not very close to each other, but Shen Jun could smell the strong smell of alcohol.
Now that they were closer, Shen Jun realized that Xie Xubai looked like he had been fished out of a wine jar.
The smell of alcohol hung between the two of them. Xie Xubai was like a mad beast who just wanted to tear Shen Jun apart and eat him.
Shen Jun's mind was not very clear to begin with, and as Xie Xubai pressed him down and kissed him, the air in his lungs was almost sucked out.
His head was becoming more and more painful. Shen Jun wanted to reach out and push away the people in front of him, but he was unable to do so. It was as if his hands were completely out of his control and he couldn't even lift them.
"Stop, Xie Xubai... I feel uncomfortable... um..."
Shen Jun's words were cut into several parts by Xie Xubai's kiss. Hearing this, Xie Xubai seemed to have pressed a switch, and his mouth movements became even more brutal.
The clothes on his chest were violently torn open, and the tattoo under Shen Jun's collarbone was suddenly exposed to the air.
The slightly cool air made Shen Jun shiver a few times, and the scent of gardenia in the air began to spread uncontrollably.
Xie Xubai raised his eyelids, and his inky eyes stared at the place on Shen Jun’s chest where his name was tattooed.
"Why……"
As Xie Xubai spoke, he suddenly raised his head, put his palm on Shen Jun's chin again, and easily pinched Shen Jun's fragile neck in his palm.
"Why do you still want to leave me? Is it true that no matter how much I have done, it is not as important to you as the young master of the Xie family?"
Xie Xubai forced Shen Jun to look into his eyes, his tone full of anger.
"Answer me, Shen Jun, why? On what basis? Do I have to break your legs and lock you up before you will obey me and stay by my side? Answer me!"
Xie Xubai's eyes were red as he kept questioning Shen Jun. The strength in his hands was almost out of control, but he managed to restrain himself in time and ultimately did not hurt Shen Jun.
Shen Jun wouldn't feel very comfortable with this clamping action.
"You...you let go first, let me go..." The only thing left in Shen Jun's mind now was the instinct of survival. Xie Xubai like this made him feel scared, and he instinctively wanted to escape from Xie Xubai's shackles.
Xie Xubai looked at the tears that were forced out of the corners of Shen Jun's eyes, and his hands suddenly froze. He slowly relaxed his strength, but still trapped Shen Jun between the door panel and his body.
Xie Xubai and Shen Jun were very close to each other, and their breaths could smell each other's scent.
The hot breath with the smell of alcohol sprayed on Shen Jun's neck, with a little moisture.
"Shen Jun, why..."
Xie Xubai pressed on Shen Jun. The alcohol made his mind confused. He only remembered what Shen Jun and Chen Zhiwei said when they met during the day.
Shen Jun wanted to let go of his hand and leave him. Why was it that every time he faced this kind of choice between two options, it was always Xie Xubai who was abandoned?
What else should he do to keep Shen Jun, and what else should he do to make his lover walk towards him firmly?
No amount of alcohol could numb Xie Xubai's mind. He couldn't forget what Shen Jun and Chen Zhiwei said to give him some time.
Why give him some time? To think about how to say goodbye to him? To think about how to dump himself?
The fear of losing Shen Jun wrapped Xie Xubai tightly, like a towel soaked in ice water, covering Xie Xubai's heart layer by layer, making him breathless.
The alcohol made Xie Xubai's feeling of uneasiness continue to ferment, and he was almost overwhelmed by this feeling.
When he found out that Yang Zhiheng sent a message to Shen Jun, he wanted Shen Jun to come but was afraid of Shen Jun coming. He was afraid that as soon as Shen Jun came, he would tell him to let go.
But he was more afraid that Shen Jun would not come. If Shen Jun was unwilling to even come to see him, then in Shen Jun's heart, he, Xie Xubai, would really have no weight at all.
"Answer me, Shen Jun... Why don't you choose me firmly? Why can a few words from others make you give up this relationship without hesitation?"
Xie Xubai lowered his head, pressed his forehead against Shen Jun's, and asked in an almost begging tone.
Shen Jun felt Xie Xubai's disordered breathing filled with alcohol, and his heart ached.
How should he answer this question? He should say that he did not belong to this world, that he would eventually leave, and that nothing good would happen to them in the end.
He is a time traveler. Even if he doesn't leave today, he will eventually leave someday in the future. Too much emotion to him... is just a burden.
In his mind, a voice so distant that Shen Jun could hardly remember whether he had heard it in real life rang in his mind.
That person told him that he should understand from the first day he came to the Quick Travel Bureau that feelings are dangerous and untouchable to them.
The voice was ethereal and distant. It kept warning Shen Jun not to make promises easily, and not to fall in love with others easily, otherwise...
Otherwise, Shen Jun would never remember it again.
The chaotic data in his head seemed like a war had broken out, constantly attacking Shen Jun's fragile nerves, causing him so much pain that he didn't even have the strength to open his mouth.
Seeing that Shen Jun didn't respond for a long time, Xie Xubai slowly released the strength in his hands.
Xie Xubai's hands slowly slid down and finally stopped at Shen Jun's waist and abdomen.
"Have you ever really loved me, Shen Jun? From the past till now, have you only used me from the beginning to the end? You used me to return to the Xie family, and then kicked me out, is that right?"
There was a rare hint of sob in Xie Xubai's voice. The voice of the person in front of him and the one in his mind overlapped and intertwined, making Shen Jun unable to tell who was speaking for a moment.
His body was embraced in a warm embrace. Xie Xubai hugged him with his arms tightened, wishing he could rub Shen Jun into his chest so that he could never escape from him.
The strong heartbeat entered Shen Jun's body through two thin layers of clothes, hitting his nerves again and again.
"Xie Xubai..."
Shen Jun called out Xie Xubai's name in a hoarse voice.
"..." Xie Xubai did not answer, but buried his head in Shen Jun's neck, greedily inhaling the strong fragrance from Shen Jun.
It seemed that only in this way could he truly own Shen Jun.