sbdcsierra Chapter 287 Hug me
Chapter 287 Hug me
Chapter 287 Hug Me
At that moment, the room became very quiet. Xu Aixue looked at the sadness and self-mockery in his eyes, and her heart ached.
"like."
She whispered, "I like you."
Song Zhibo's eyes trembled, and Xu Aixue also curled her lips, "But it's because I like you that I don't want to embarrass myself more."
Her long eyelashes flickered, and in the blink of an eye, her eyes were slightly moist, so she lowered her eyes, "Because I know very well that I am not the one you like the most. There is always a place for another person in your heart. When you are in a daze, I will wonder if you are thinking about her. When you are sad, I will wonder if it is because of her. I can't control these thoughts, so I can only force myself to calm down.
If I don't stay calm and clear-headed, and let myself fall, and let myself lower myself to pester you, I can't imagine what I would become. That's not what I want."
She didn't say that she felt the most heartbroken when she saw the wounds on his arms.
Xu Aixue took a deep breath, raised her eyes again, looked at him with tears in her eyes, and said seriously: "Song Zhibo, I like you very much, but I also want to be a better person and have a better relationship. I don't want to become a resentful woman who may go crazy in a relationship at any time because of insecurity, do you understand?"
A bad relationship can make a person worse and worse. She doesn't want to be the kind of person who only complains about herself or others in a relationship.
Song Zhibo's brows tightened sharply.
Hearing her say that she liked him, he was very happy.
But he felt uncomfortable listening to her other words.
Song Zhibo placed his fingers on her cheek, wiping away her tears, and said in a hoarse voice, "What should I do? That relationship is indeed something I can't change, but because of this, can I never love someone else again?"
Xu Aixue's eyelashes trembled a few times because of the word "love" he said.
Song Zhibo also curled his lips bitterly: "I can't change my past, and the memories that person left behind are indeed indelible. You insist that I completely remove her from my heart, but I really can't do it, and it's impossible for me to do it."
Just like the scars left on his arms, they were too deep and indeed difficult to repair.
"But what I can do, what I can guarantee, is that in the future with you, there will only be you. No matter what happens, I will only care about you. Is that not okay?"
Maybe he is not as affectionate and loyal as he thinks. He has fallen in love with someone else and has fallen in love with Xu Aixue.
After meeting Jiang Wanxi tonight, he realized this even more deeply.
Because after meeting Jiang Wanxi, the first person he thought of was Xu Aixue.
He misses her.
I just want to see her.
"Xu Aixue, after being with you, I think of you when I'm daydreaming, when I'm angry and sad it's because of you, and when I'm happy it's also because of you. Although it's hard to say it, I still have to admit that I just like you."
Song Zhibo withdrew his hand that had been wiping her tears, and said in a low voice, "But if you feel that I, who can easily fall in love with someone, am not worthy of your trust and love, then... I really have nothing to say."
After all, even he himself couldn't figure it out and found it ridiculous.
Xu Aixue's heart contracted violently.
She pursed her lips and remained silent.
Song Zhibo looked at her for a long time. Without waiting for her to speak, he pulled the corners of his lips stiffly, "I know..."
"Do you really like me?" Xu Aixue suddenly asked him.
Song Zhibo was stunned for a moment, then nodded slowly: "Yes."
Xu Aixue asked again: "After meeting her, do you still like me?"
"Yes."
Song Zhibo nodded again, his voice even hoarse: "After meeting her, I am more certain that I like you."
He lowered his eyes, perhaps even he felt that what he said was too ridiculous, and he was afraid to see her contemptuous look at him.
It seems that he really doesn't understand how to like someone, how to love someone.
Having hurt Jiang Wanxi when I was young, there is no chance to make amends.
And now, because of his overly casual feelings, he is going to hurt another girl.
He was also embarrassed.
Song Zhibo's Adam's apple rolled, and he was about to say something else when he heard her whisper, "Then hug me."
He was suddenly stunned, raised his eyes and met her tearful eyes.
"Didn't you say you like me? Then hug me." She said softly.
Song Zhibo's eyes trembled violently, and he raised his hands and hugged her tightly.
He lowered his head and rested his chin on her shoulder. At that moment, his body trembled slightly.
Xu Aixue closed her eyes, put her arms around his waist, buried her head in his neck, and hugged him tightly.
"Then I'll trust you again."
Her voice came from his neck, muffled and hoarse, "I don't think you are casual about feelings, I just think you are too serious about feelings."
It was because he was too serious that she didn't know whether he could get over his last relationship.
Xu Aixue sniffed, "Besides, everyone has the opportunity to start over. This is not called casual. No one has to be stuck in the past forever. What I am afraid of is that you are always stuck in the past."
She didn't care who was in his memory, she only cared about who he liked now, and whether he was thinking of her or someone else when he faced her.
Xu Aixue rubbed her face on his shoulder, crying, "Song Zhibo, as long as you don't lie to me."
Song Zhibo's tightly closed eyelashes kept flickering, and his hands on her back and waist slowly tightened a little.
"Do not lie to you."
He said, "I swear."
Xu Aixue closed her eyes and tears fell on his shoulder.
Then be brave again.
She was willing to believe him.
After hugging for a long time, Xu Aixue spoke again in a sullen tone, "Song Zhibo."
Song Zhibo murmured, "Hmm," and Xu Aixue said, "My legs are numb."
It was indeed a bit awkward to hug him while kneeling on the ground. Not only did my legs feel numb, but my waist also felt a bit sore.
Song Zhibo: "..."
He suddenly smiled, closed his eyes and sighed, then let her go.
He stood up first, then leaned over and picked her up. Just as he was about to carry her to sit on the bed, she hurriedly stopped him, "I just sat on the ground, don't put me on... the bed..."
Song Zhibo had already let go and threw her onto the bed.
Xu Aixue fell into the soft bed in an instant.
"!"
She suddenly opened her tearful eyes wide, and before she could say anything, he leaned over, pinched her cheeks, kissed her on the lips, and called her, "Xu Aixue."
He raised his head again, lowered his eyes and looked at her, "Will you smile at me again in the future?"
He is particularly persistent on this issue.
Xu Aixue pursed her lips and turned her head away, "It depends on your performance."
Song Zhibo frowned: "How to show it?"
She thought for a moment and said, "Please change the sheets and quilt for me first."
There's definitely no way to sleep in this bed.
Song Zhibo was silent for two seconds, then whispered, "Why don't I help you change your clothes first?"
Although the two had been dating for several months, they had only kissed and hadn't done anything else.
So when Xu Aixue heard what he said, especially when the two of them were lying on the bed in this position, her cheeks turned red instantly.
She couldn't help but raise her knee to kick him, but this time he was prepared and pressed her legs tightly.
Xu Aixue's eyes widened, he curled his lips, leaned over and kissed her still red eyes.
Her eyelashes fluttered and she closed her eyes, then she heard him say, "You were just kidding."
Song Zhibo just hugged her tightly.
"Aishe."
He also closed his eyes. "If I do or say something that makes you unhappy, you have to tell me. I admit that I really don't know how to like someone. Perhaps the habits and environment I grew up in make me too frivolous and casual at times. So, if I make you sad, make you feel insecure, or make you feel embarrassed, you have to tell me."
He stroked her hair as he spoke, his voice hoarse: "Even if I can't do the best now, I will try my best and I will get better. Believe me."
Xu Aixue pursed her lips tightly, leaned in his arms, nodded and said softly: "Okay."