sbdcsierra Chapter 435: Erosion of Memories
Chapter 435: Erosion of Memories
Although Lu Jingchen's emotions were numb, like a pool of stagnant water, his memories were like an unstoppable storm, ready to break the silence at any time. He tried to isolate himself from the outside world and bury the memories related to Jiang Ciyou deeply, but they were like tenacious weeds, and they would grow wildly as long as there was a crack.
On this day, Lu Jingchen sat numbly in the room full of memories as usual. The sunlight came in through the gaps in the curtains, forming faint rays of light, and dust was flying in the light, just like his broken memories. His eyes inadvertently fell on the piano in the corner. That piano was once one of the witnesses of their love.
I remember one time, Jiang Ciyou accidentally heard a song played by Lu Jingchen, and the melodious melody seemed to bring her into a dreamlike world. Since then, she always pestered Lu Jingchen to play for her. Lu Jingchen looked at her expectant eyes, and his heart was full of tenderness. Every time she played, Jiang Ciyou would sit quietly beside her, with her eyes full of intoxication. Sometimes, she would gently sway her body with the melody, and the picture was like a beautiful painting. And now, this piano is quietly staying in the corner, covered with dust, just like their past love, forgotten in the corner. The moment he saw the piano, Lu Jingchen's heart seemed to be hit hard by something, and those memories that he had tried hard to suppress instantly came like a tide.
He remembered that once, in order to celebrate a small anniversary, Lu Jingchen specially composed a song for Jiang Ciyou. He spent countless nights, carefully polishing every note, just to give her a surprise. When he played the song on the piano, Jiang Ciyou's eyes flashed with tears of surprise and emotion. She walked gently to Lu Jingchen, hugged him tightly, and whispered in his ear: "This is the most moving song I have ever heard, because you wrote it for me." At that moment, they seemed to be at the center of the world, and everything around them became unimportant, only each other's heartbeats and that beautiful melody. Now, all this can only become a memory, and the song seems to still echo in my ears, but with endless sadness and loss.
The afternoon sun gradually became stronger, shining on Lu Jingchen's face, making it difficult for him to open his eyes. He closed his eyes, trying to escape the light, but fell into another memory. It was a rainy day, and they were trapped in a small cafe. The rain outside was drizzling, hitting the window glass, forming water marks. The cafe was filled with the rich aroma of coffee. Jiang Ciyou and Lu Jingchen sat by the window, smiling at each other. They shared a small piece of cake, one bite and one bite, and the sweet taste spread in their mouths. There was a little cream on the corner of Jiang Ciyou's mouth. When Lu Jingchen saw it, he couldn't help but reach out and wipe it gently. His fingers accidentally touched her lips. At that moment, time seemed to stand still. They just looked at each other quietly, with love in their eyes. And now, whenever it rains, Lu Jingchen can't help but think of that rainy day and their sweet time in the cafe. That sweetness formed a sharp contrast with the pain now, making his heart even more uncomfortable.
In the evening, Lu Jingchen dragged his tired body to the window. On the street outside the window, people were coming and going, and there was a lot of traffic. He saw a young couple walking hand in hand, the girl's face was filled with a happy smile, and the boy looked at the girl tenderly. This scene immediately made Lu Jingchen's mind emerge the scene of him and Jiang Ciyou strolling on this street. They also held hands like that, sharing the fun of the day with each other. Jiang Ciyou would jump up from time to time, pointing at the small accessories or snack stands on the roadside excitedly like a child. Lu Jingchen always looked at her dotingly and fulfilled her every little wish. Sometimes, they would sit on a bench on the street and watch the sunset gradually set, dyeing the whole city golden. Jiang Ciyou would lean on Lu Jingchen's shoulder and whisper, "I hope we can keep going like this and never separate." Lu Jingchen would hold her hand tightly and respond, "We definitely will." But now, those beautiful promises have all vanished, and he is left alone standing in front of the window, watching other people's happiness and recalling his own pain.
When night fell, Lu Jingchen lay on the bed that was once full of warmth. He turned over, and his hand accidentally touched a small object under the pillow. He took it out and saw that it was a hairpin that Jiang Ciyou had worn before. It was the hairpin that she fell in love with at first sight when he accompanied her shopping. At that time, after she put on the hairpin, the whole person looked more beautiful and charming. Lu Jingchen bought it without hesitation, and Jiang Ciyou kissed him on the face happily. Since then, this hairpin has often appeared in her hair. Lu Jingchen held the hairpin and couldn't let it go for a long time. He remembered the playful look of Jiang Ciyou when she wore the hairpin, and the way she acted coquettishly in front of him. These memories were like sharp blades, which once again hurt his already broken heart.
Lu Jingchen tried to put the hairpin back under the pillow, but his hands wouldn't listen. Jiang Ciyou's appearance kept appearing in his mind, and every smile and every look of hers were played in front of him like a movie. He felt as if he had returned to the past, back to those good times. However, when he came to his senses, he found that he was still alone, and the feeling of loss almost overwhelmed him. He knew that these memories were just illusions of the past, and the reality was that Jiang Ciyou had left him and returned to her husband. But he couldn't control his thoughts. Those memories were like a drug addiction that he couldn't quit, constantly eroding his soul and making him sink deeper and deeper into the abyss of pain.
Even though he has told himself countless times to forget and move on, as soon as there is a slight disturbance, those memories will come back like surging waves. He is like a small boat in a storm, being hit by the waves of memories, unable to fight back. Every invasion of memories makes his heart more tired and desperate. He doesn't know how long he can hold on, and he doesn't know if he can really get out of this relationship. He only knows that as long as he is alive, these memories will always accompany him like a shadow, constantly tormenting him.
The author has something to say
Dear readers and friends, in this chapter, I want to show the unspeakable pain in Lu Jingchen's heart through the continuous erosion of his memories. Memories are a wonderful thing. They can bring us warmth when we are lonely and helpless, but they can also become the most hurtful weapon when we lose them. Lu Jingchen is in such a situation. He tries to get rid of the shackles of memories, but is tightly entangled by them. This is like the situation we often encounter in life. There are some things we want to forget, but we always find it hard to forget. I hope that through such descriptions, everyone can feel more deeply the complexity of Lu Jingchen's character and the pain he has suffered. I also hope that everyone can think about the eternal topics of love, memories and self-salvation from his experience. I hope you can continue to pay attention to this story and see how Lu Jingchen struggles in such a predicament and finally finds his way out.